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All the lies we tell them…  All the masks we wear…  And yet they never realize what we hid in all these years…  Why is it that the closer the relations, the distant they seem …  Live together and yet not close enough… So who shall we expect to see the truth in our eyes, the pain our heart when those sitting next to us are miles apart??

And then all you can do is pray…  In silent tears when in sajdah…  And when they start rolling through your eyes, you scream so loud and yet so silent that only HE can hear, and perhaps those who HE allows to…  And you dont complain, ask for help or anything…  Instead, you just cry…. Let the pain out… And let HIM be your shoulder… Let HIM be the one to hug you tight and cuddle up just so that all the pain you’ve been holding on is let go…

And then, after moments of what seemed like eternity, you wipe the tears and pray… Pray what you normally do, for your loved ones and for guidance and forgiveness…and nothing special…. What happened moments ago is left unspoken… Except for maybe, asking HIM to make you stronger…  Asking HIM to be your best friend… And thanking HIM for being one & making you stronger…

And then, it is back to regular life… Once again let all be stuffed down until it comes crashing down… And until then, let it be a secret… Of u & HIM… Let it be ur safe haven…  And let those sitting & living with you be themselves…  And understand that when it is time HE will send the one who can understand you, your lies, and ur pain …. and then that person can share the secret you have with HIM, and even though that person can never be HIM, but still … And it can be in form of ur family, friend, child, or spouse…. In either way, you’ll have one less person to wear mask infront of…. One less person to lie to… And one less person to hide ur pain from… One less person to pretend to…

Waiting kills…  But it’s worth it…

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Smiling through the pain :)


broken-heart-hand-holdThere are times in life when heart succumbs to what mind has to offer – it accepts reality and steps out of the world of hope & “fantasy” & “dream” … yet deep inside it keeps a hope alive, its so secret that not even heart knows of it unless something happens against that hope & then mind just smiles at the innocence of the heart …

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